When relationships end, things tend to get nasty. And it is a testament to how strong the relationship really was to see if it can rebound.

My relationship with LAW has been tenuous at best for about a year now. And last X-Mas was the beginning of the end. Certain members of the band are selfish and always seem to attract people who will put up with their B.S. for so long. I always wondered why so many people hated on LAW.

Even when I was in the band and enjoyed feeding into the theory that “everyone should love to hate us,” it was always a mystery to me why we really were so disliked in our little musical community. But I am fully aware now. Now that I am no longer a member of LAW, its becoming more clear my the minute just why LAW is so hated on. And the reasons are pretty simple. Really just two:

1) LAW as a whole has a huge Ego
2) LAW is one of the most collectively selfish bands ever.

Now don’t get me wrong. I greatly enjoyed being in LAW and thought we made some dope music. But then the honeymoon was over, and things started to get messy. I am not going to expose the personal bullshit that plagues the band, or even admit my own assholeishness here in this forum. This is a general post about the feedback I am receiving now being an ex member of LAW. Generally, I am getting three main lines from people, “LAW was never going anywhere commercially and you were wasting your time,” “the only good things musically about LAW are your drumming and the boy’s guitar playing,” and “Rick is a horrible front man/ does not have a great voice, and that alone killed you in the long run.” These three sentences have been spoken by numerous musicians in my area, and to be honest I don’t fully agree with all of them, and would modify the rest. But once again I am biased having not only been in the band, but having liked most of what we did. I will go so far as to say, I am now of the opinion that maybe “the people,” while usually wildly ignorant, and misinformed, may have something here. At least in part.

I would like to see LAW do well, and I will even go so far to hope that I am the next “Pete Best” and quit the band before they blew up. I really tend to doubt it, but the sentiments are there. Whatever they are worth. So for old times sakes, Suck My Balls.

Life is one epic journey, as I am sure you, who are reading this, already know. When big events take place, and your hand is forced, you can sink or swim in your own delusions, or take control and do what will ultimately make you happy. Or you can do nothing and let events control you.

I am constantly in and out of love with life. I sometimes find great happiness in pain and suffering. While I don’t think I am a sadist, I sometimes think that I am. What is life if there is nothing to decipher, wallow in, stress about, or feel? Happiness is often fleeting, and incomplete. This is the nature of being human. We always want to be happy, but then find more and more and more reasons not to be. So in the end we are only happy for very brief periods of time. And in the meanwhile, we are lost, searching for the next thing, or person to make us happy again. Most of us walk around like zombies, just waiting for things to happen in life. Or we base our decisions off of our most current emotions, the results often being mixed and haphazard.

As my current situation changes, I am setting myself up for a lot of pain/ happiness. I philosophize on life. And in my half ass attempt I realize that everything I loath, and think is lame, I do myself. After all, I am only human right? I fuck up and make the same stupid mistakes we all make. And I regret nothing. Because life is complicated, and I am but a person, with my own shit/ baggage. I make rash decisions based off of my emotions and watch the chaos unfold. Or things fall into place. What ever.

There will be bruised ego’s, broken hearts, and emotions all over the place soon. I embrace the changes to come with trepidation and fear. And also a sense of excitement. Because life is nothing without change and pain. And pain ultimately leads to happiness.